Late night writing

Most of my ideas come very late at night. I guess that's when the kids finally are in bed and I can catch my breath and relax. If I don't get too sleepy, I can put out some good writings. All of my writing comes in the form of song writing. There is a line in one of my songs that I really love; "I'm sorry for self-loathing, I hate that most about myself." I say that I'm sorry for self-loathing, and then I self-loath (I hate that most about myself). This is an important line to me. I really feel it. Song writing is an important form of communication for me. If you want to know how I am feeling, listen to my latest song. I can be read like a book, when someone knows the direction to read me. There are no secreats, just areas of avoidance. Signing the eviction notice, I continue staring into the mirror with the full intentions of vomitting. I'll have to remember that. How am I feeling? You tell me.